So since the last time I wrote on here there has been a few changes.. Lovely changes!!!
I am doing so great I couldn't even image being this ok with everything that happened last year. I can finally say that I love the person I am and where I am in life. I have had my ups and downs and love confusion.. But I am in an amazing place!!
Work is going well, looking into options for school. Still want to do the therapist thing. It has it's normally irritations like any other job. But it helps to have friends in the work place.
The family is doing well. I think my aunt and uncle are doing better with every day after losing Jake last year. We had his one year last month, it was hard but we talked about his memory and how great he was.
Life! Such a big four letter word.
I have my ups and downs like I said before. I try to keep myself upbeat and positive. Some days are harder than others. But I manage to keep a smile on my face almost everyday!! I'm still doing the weight loss thing, 95 lbs down only 20 and I'm back at my high school weight.. It's crazy to think that I am that close to it. To look back on pictures from back then to now its insane. I was very unhappy and unhealthy! Now I laugh all the time, and try to eat healthy ish.. I have been working out and doing 5K's and all that fun.
Mentally I have been trying to keep up with writing every night except for the weekends. I try to stay away from things that I know will bring me down or remind me of the pain. I don't really like talking about what happened or things I did with Rob, I talked it all out. I feel like I over talk about it and I don't like that so I just stopped it completely.. I had good memories with him, but I like the ones I'm making now a lot more. I like the guy a lot more. :)
LoVe another amazing four letter word....
So I was dating a guy a few month after I left Rob. But something about always having to pay, and try to get his attention was well pretty lame!! Even more lame was the fact that he enjoyed talking to my good friend more than me, while I was right there with him.. But that is a whole rant in itself... Needless to say that had since ended. And the fairytale has since started.
And so she waited, not for the knight with the white horse, but for a rockstar with a baseball.
I got a random snapchat from a TylerQT asking if I wanted to go a Cubs game. Being the crazy person I am I said yes! Best decision I have ever made!!
Ok so here is how the story goes:
I saw this cute picture of a guy on Tinder(yes tinder, something for me to play with when I got bored). We talked on there for a little bit and he asked me for my phone number. I didn't feel comfortable giving that to him so we went with snapchat instead. I thought he was super cute, totally my type. hence the QT after his name... But then we stopped talking, he would still look at my snaps here and there.
So I started dating again and went on a few dates and meet a few people.. More like a few creepers!! I meet this guy Tim and we started a relationship, rebound I think is the term.. Things just weren't going they way I wanted or what I was looking for. Towards the end of the relationship I started talking to TylerQT again. He asked me if I wanted to go to a cubs game with him and a group of friends.
I was soooooo nervous about the idea of going. I mean going to a town I don't know to meet a guy I have never met before to go to a Cubs game in another state.. Can you say weird, crazy and WTH are you thinking girl. Something kept telling me I needed to go, I needed to do this. All my friends and my family were telling me to just go! We talking for almost a month before the game so we could get to know each other a little bit before hand. We talked everyday!!! in the morning, and at night. sometimes at lunch even.
So the day of the game came. I was a wreck on the inside, but at the same time I was ok. I knew I was going to be fine, and that I was going to have fun. I left early to make sure I would get there on time in case I got lost. I got there early so it made him a little ahh. But he was cute like in his pictures and extremely more nervous than I was....
I meet his grandmother, like 50+ other people and his parents the next day. The game was so much fun, I had never been to a legit baseball game so it was a blast. I was going to go home but got tired so I was going to nap a little then go, I set an alarm. Well I didn't go home till the next morning. He didn't try anything, although I was expecting him too. That part I was nervous about!!!
Needless to say it's been going strong since that day! I wear the same smile he kept giving me that day everyday!
It's so different with him. Talking to him is effortless, even when there is silence its great. He makes me laugh, he pisses me off, he picks on me, but I can do the same to him. I think the best part of everything that has happened in the few shorts months is him.
Finally having someone who actually likes some of the same stuff, and always keeps me on my toes is amazing. He is in a band (Man the Mighty) so he has practice, and shows and tours. So there is always that opps go to go for a few weeks, which is a bummer. But it's something he loves and I love watching him play.. makes him hotter!! But I could careless about that, having him play on the piano is just as good if not more. I did always say I need a rockstar, someone who could play something till I passed out.
I think it's safe to say I found him. Hell who knows this could be the last guy I meet, my last first date! But I can't see the future, nor do I want to. But one thing I do know and I tell him all the time. If it doesn't work out between us(I hope it does) I'm done. I will throw the love towel in and say NO MORE. But right now I can't get enough it, I want more...
~Tasha~
Work is going well, looking into options for school. Still want to do the therapist thing. It has it's normally irritations like any other job. But it helps to have friends in the work place.
The family is doing well. I think my aunt and uncle are doing better with every day after losing Jake last year. We had his one year last month, it was hard but we talked about his memory and how great he was.
Life! Such a big four letter word.
I have my ups and downs like I said before. I try to keep myself upbeat and positive. Some days are harder than others. But I manage to keep a smile on my face almost everyday!! I'm still doing the weight loss thing, 95 lbs down only 20 and I'm back at my high school weight.. It's crazy to think that I am that close to it. To look back on pictures from back then to now its insane. I was very unhappy and unhealthy! Now I laugh all the time, and try to eat healthy ish.. I have been working out and doing 5K's and all that fun.
Mentally I have been trying to keep up with writing every night except for the weekends. I try to stay away from things that I know will bring me down or remind me of the pain. I don't really like talking about what happened or things I did with Rob, I talked it all out. I feel like I over talk about it and I don't like that so I just stopped it completely.. I had good memories with him, but I like the ones I'm making now a lot more. I like the guy a lot more. :)
LoVe another amazing four letter word....
So I was dating a guy a few month after I left Rob. But something about always having to pay, and try to get his attention was well pretty lame!! Even more lame was the fact that he enjoyed talking to my good friend more than me, while I was right there with him.. But that is a whole rant in itself... Needless to say that had since ended. And the fairytale has since started.
And so she waited, not for the knight with the white horse, but for a rockstar with a baseball.
I got a random snapchat from a TylerQT asking if I wanted to go a Cubs game. Being the crazy person I am I said yes! Best decision I have ever made!!
Ok so here is how the story goes:
I saw this cute picture of a guy on Tinder(yes tinder, something for me to play with when I got bored). We talked on there for a little bit and he asked me for my phone number. I didn't feel comfortable giving that to him so we went with snapchat instead. I thought he was super cute, totally my type. hence the QT after his name... But then we stopped talking, he would still look at my snaps here and there.
So I started dating again and went on a few dates and meet a few people.. More like a few creepers!! I meet this guy Tim and we started a relationship, rebound I think is the term.. Things just weren't going they way I wanted or what I was looking for. Towards the end of the relationship I started talking to TylerQT again. He asked me if I wanted to go to a cubs game with him and a group of friends.
I was soooooo nervous about the idea of going. I mean going to a town I don't know to meet a guy I have never met before to go to a Cubs game in another state.. Can you say weird, crazy and WTH are you thinking girl. Something kept telling me I needed to go, I needed to do this. All my friends and my family were telling me to just go! We talking for almost a month before the game so we could get to know each other a little bit before hand. We talked everyday!!! in the morning, and at night. sometimes at lunch even.
So the day of the game came. I was a wreck on the inside, but at the same time I was ok. I knew I was going to be fine, and that I was going to have fun. I left early to make sure I would get there on time in case I got lost. I got there early so it made him a little ahh. But he was cute like in his pictures and extremely more nervous than I was....
I meet his grandmother, like 50+ other people and his parents the next day. The game was so much fun, I had never been to a legit baseball game so it was a blast. I was going to go home but got tired so I was going to nap a little then go, I set an alarm. Well I didn't go home till the next morning. He didn't try anything, although I was expecting him too. That part I was nervous about!!!
Needless to say it's been going strong since that day! I wear the same smile he kept giving me that day everyday!
It's so different with him. Talking to him is effortless, even when there is silence its great. He makes me laugh, he pisses me off, he picks on me, but I can do the same to him. I think the best part of everything that has happened in the few shorts months is him.
Finally having someone who actually likes some of the same stuff, and always keeps me on my toes is amazing. He is in a band (Man the Mighty) so he has practice, and shows and tours. So there is always that opps go to go for a few weeks, which is a bummer. But it's something he loves and I love watching him play.. makes him hotter!! But I could careless about that, having him play on the piano is just as good if not more. I did always say I need a rockstar, someone who could play something till I passed out.
I think it's safe to say I found him. Hell who knows this could be the last guy I meet, my last first date! But I can't see the future, nor do I want to. But one thing I do know and I tell him all the time. If it doesn't work out between us(I hope it does) I'm done. I will throw the love towel in and say NO MORE. But right now I can't get enough it, I want more...
~Tasha~
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