Oh Boy.. Update

So since the last time I wrote on here there has been a few changes.. Lovely changes!!!

I am doing so great I couldn't even image being this ok with everything that happened last year. I can finally say that I love the person I am and where I am in life. I have had my ups and downs and love confusion.. But I am in an amazing place!! 

Work is going well, looking into options for school. Still want to do the therapist thing. It has it's normally irritations like any other job. But it helps to have friends in the work place.

The family is doing well. I think my aunt and uncle are doing better with every day after losing Jake last year. We had his one year last month, it was hard but we talked about his memory and how great he was.

Life! Such a big four letter word.

I have my ups and downs like I said before. I try to keep myself upbeat and positive. Some days are harder than others. But I manage to keep a smile on my face almost everyday!! I'm still doing the weight loss thing, 95 lbs down only 20 and I'm back at my high school weight.. It's crazy to think that I am that close to it. To look back on pictures from back then to now its insane. I was very unhappy and unhealthy! Now I laugh all the time, and try to eat healthy ish.. I have been working out and doing 5K's and all that fun.

Mentally I have been trying to keep up with writing every night except for the weekends. I try to stay away from things that I know will bring me down or remind me of the pain. I don't really like talking about what happened or things I did with Rob, I talked it all out. I feel like I over talk about it and I don't like that so I just stopped it completely.. I had good memories with him, but I like the ones I'm making now a lot more. I like the guy a lot more. :)

LoVe another amazing four letter word....

So I was dating a guy a few month after I left Rob. But something about always having to pay, and try to get his attention was well pretty lame!! Even more lame was the fact that he enjoyed talking to my good friend more than me, while I was right there with him.. But that is a whole rant in itself... Needless to say that had since ended. And the fairytale has since started.

And so she waited, not for the knight with the white horse, but for a rockstar with a baseball.

I got a random snapchat from a TylerQT asking if I wanted to go a Cubs game. Being the crazy person I am I said yes! Best decision I have ever made!!

Ok so here is how the story goes:
I saw this cute picture of a guy on Tinder(yes tinder, something for me to play with when I got bored). We talked on there for a little bit and he asked me for my phone number. I didn't feel comfortable giving that to him so we went with snapchat instead. I thought he was super cute, totally my type. hence the QT after his name... But then we stopped talking, he would still look at my snaps here and there.

So I started dating again and went on a few dates and meet a few people.. More like a few creepers!! I meet this guy Tim and we started a relationship, rebound I think is the term.. Things just weren't going they way I wanted or what I was looking for. Towards the end of the relationship I started talking to TylerQT again. He asked me if I wanted to go to a cubs game with him and a group of friends.

I was soooooo nervous about the idea of going. I mean going to a town I don't know to meet a guy I have never met before to go to a Cubs game in another state.. Can you say weird, crazy and WTH are you thinking girl. Something kept telling me I needed to go, I needed to do this. All my friends and my family were telling me to just go! We talking for almost a month before the game so we could get to know each other a little bit before hand. We talked everyday!!! in the morning, and at night. sometimes at lunch even.

So the day of the game came. I was a wreck on the inside, but at the same time I was ok. I knew I was going to be fine, and that I was going to have fun. I left early to make sure I would get there on time in case I got lost. I got there early so it made him a little ahh. But he was cute like in his pictures and extremely more nervous than I was....

I meet his grandmother, like 50+ other people and his parents the next day. The game was so much fun, I had never been to a legit baseball game so it was a blast. I was going to go home but got tired so I was going to nap a little then go, I set an alarm. Well I didn't go home till the next morning. He didn't try anything, although I was expecting him too. That part I was nervous about!!!

Needless to say it's been going strong since that day! I wear the same smile he kept giving me that day everyday!

It's so different with him. Talking to him is effortless, even when there is silence its great. He makes me laugh, he pisses me off, he picks on me, but I can do the same to him. I think the best part of everything that has happened in the few shorts months is him.

Finally having someone who actually likes some of the same stuff, and always keeps me on my toes is amazing. He is in a band (Man the Mighty) so he has practice, and shows and tours. So there is always that opps go to go for a few weeks, which is a bummer. But it's something he loves and I love watching him play.. makes him hotter!! But I could careless about that, having him play on the piano is just as good if not more. I did always say I need a rockstar, someone who could play something till I passed out.

I think it's safe to say I found him. Hell who knows this could be the last guy I meet, my last first date! But I can't see the future, nor do I want to. But one thing I do know and I tell him all the time. If it doesn't work out between us(I hope it does) I'm done. I will throw the love towel in and say NO MORE. But right now I can't get enough it, I want more...

~Tasha~
  

Oh the change in Life

Sorry it's been so long. A lot of things haven happened since the last time i was really on here. Lets give you a little background of what has gone on that last 6 months. 

In March I meet what I would like to call some friends for LIFE. Words can't describe how I feel about these people. Kelley, Rebecca, Joe and Jason! These four people changed my life and they continue to do so everyday! I was in a relationship where I was trying to make the other person happy and not focus on myself. We spent countless hours and Saturday's getting ready for our companies STAR dinner for a lip sync contest. We may have spent a little too much time getting ready for this but we had a blast doing so!! 

Shortly afterwards I moved out the first time(you will understand later) and moved back with my parents. I left the house I helped build and my dog behind. It was the hardest thing I thought I would ever have to do(till I starting thinking about dating again). 

In June I lost a family member. Jacob P Frisella (miss you dearly)

He was crushed in a work related accident. I have never cried so hard or cry while doing a blog. He was making a name for himself in this big world. He had just bought a house and was going to flip it. Along with a new car. He left behind 3 brothers and a sister that will only know of his amazing memories we share with her. His passing open my eyes to a lot of things that I was trying to not think about. 

In June I also returned to the house and the BOY. I thought things were going well, but i had a sense that he was done and just didn't know it yet. Needless to say he cheated on me, and I was broken! I was lost, I thought at the time I was pregnant with his child and I was torn. We were together for 12 years all together the exact day I moved my stuff out for good. I found out I wasn't pregnant. It still hurts to this day and I still get tears when I think to long about it. But everyone gets to be happy whether they deserve it or not is up to KARMA. 

I have some guys in my life that make me smile when I see that its a text or a message from them. But I have to protect myself and mostly my heart. 

But with every adventure in life comes a lesson. I got a lot of wise words of wisdom :). And I have listen very carefully even if they were over my head a little. I have found myself and little happier, a little more positive, and I dream less about it. I am making steps to my new life and new adventures. You have to go through a few bad apples before you find a pie worthy one. 

When I'm ready so will he, and it will be up to us to make things happen. 

Remember everything happens for a reason and there is always a lesson to be learned in every situation and in every conversation. It's up to us to learn from them and continue on with a smile on our face and in our heart!!    

You are loved! And there is someone out there who loves you beyond words! <3 p="">

Goodbye 2013 Hello 2014

Let's start off by saying HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2013 is behind us now. It's time to start fresh and get real.

2013 was an okay year for me. At the begging I was working 3 jobs, still getting used to the idea of living on my own with my boyfriend and the dog.. Things were not easy by any means. and to this day they still aren't. Money hasn't been and issue (yet). I work one job full time now, in medical records. It could pay better, but I haven't finished my training yet. I have full health insurance that is my own. Ha, I called my mom the other day and was like "mom I'm a grown up! I have  health insurance now!" she laughed at me. But there is something about having everything and you paying for it. No one else just you. It feels good to know that I am able to do that. 

Anyways, you don't want to hear about that junk. Lets talk boys! 

Bruce and Rob. Rob and I have been together since High School. Long time I know! Nov. 2012 we got Bruce(a Pugsund, better known as a Dachshund- Pug mix). He has been one hell of a dog! He gets into EVERYTHING, he eats fuzzies, he eats bugs, for a while he was eating his poop. I broke that habit fast, all thought it peeks its way through sometimes. But other than that he has been a good dog. He sleeps in the bed with us(I dislike that very much), he is a good car buddy. He is so friendly it's disturbing, he barks then gets all lovey on ya.. Heaven forbid someone breaks in our house, he would like them to death. 

Rob and I have been okay. Yes just okay, we still have our fights, and days were we can't stand each other. We still are just dating, no engagement here not yet. All though everyone is on him about it. Like hardcore!! But ya know can't rush that stuff it just makes them have cold feet. So I'm willing to wait just a little bit longer for him to make up his mind. 

Work has been going great! I'm still at Rosecrance, but now I do Medical Records. A little better pay and no phones or customers (as Much). I am looking into getting certified so I can get more pay and possible get out and get a job somewhere else. Don't get me wrong I love where I work but the location has its up and downs. They aren't together on everything and things are so out of wack that things are getting bad. So again looking to move.

I am saving for a trip of a life time!! I am saving to take a trip to Tokyo, Japan!! I know, I know why in the world would you want to go there Tasha.. I have been looking into this for YEARS!! I mean if you go at the right time it is perfection!! The cherry blossoms are amazing! 

Ya see!! The views are just breath taking, sadly I have only seen pictures. But I could only imagine what they are in person! And the language and the culture are beyond interesting. And get this, you can pretty much get anything you want in a vending machine. It's so cool! 

  

Crazy cool!!

Well that is it for now. I will try and keep up with this, this year as much as possible!! 

:)

Complete 180

Things have been so crazy lately. This is our first big holiday in our house. Also with our dog Bruce. This is just all so crazy. If you would have asked me 4 months ago where I would be and how Rob and I would be I would have told you I don't know. Our relationship was so rocky and at times it still is. But we are making it, making it work no matter how rough things get. We try to never go to bed mad at each other. Sometimes it doesn't work, but we patch it up in the morning or later in the night.

We don't get to see each other that often even tho we live together. I work 2 jobs and he is a manger. We see each other in the morning for a little bit then at night before we go to bed. When we are lucky we have days off together. Still even if we are off together we are so busy doing stuff that we don't get to sit and just enjoy each other.

We are leaving for Vail on the 26th of Jan. Yes I am counting down the days till our trip. I am so excited for this trip, but Rob is not for some reason. I haven't gotten to the bottom of it yet but I will. ;) We don't get to spend time with each other while we are there except for when we hot tub it up. He knows the slopes, and I well lets just say I look good in my UGGs  shopping. It really is beautiful out there tho. Our plan is to move and live out there some day. It will happen with out a doubt!

Marriage.... EEK!! lol
I's in our future just not at this moment. We are young, wild, and free! We are enjoying life and we just started living together so ask me in a year or so how that boat is going.. On the bright side I have the wedding planned. :)

We are still getting used to each other and how we work together.. It is just so crazy that we are living together on our own.. But its just one more step for our lives. :)


Well until next time

Peace, Love, and Craziness
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Craziness

Here is a recap of the things that have been going on in my life the past few months. 

1. Rob and I went camping. It was a little weird and not a happy time for us. Our relationship was kinda on the rocks, and the weather was against us this year. 
2. We came back from camping and he surprised me with a house. Our very first house! :)
3. We then went on a trip to FL.
4. We moved into our house.
5. For once in my life, things are really good. 
6. Then my cat died. That was the hardest thing to watch. Yeah I was sitting next to him and held his paw while he took is last breath. It still is so hard to deal with. I still see him randomly and when I close my eyes. 

Like I said a lot of things have been happening. Good and bad, but all things happen for a reason. :)

Titanium

I am loving that song right now!

Ok so time to blog, you ready!?!

My oh my have things been crazy these past few months! I mean things have been amazing but I haven't had time to just sit and think about things. So yes I have a ton of things running around in my mind! It's very overwhelming and I don't really have anyone to talk to about anything other then Rob and Family.

So things can get a little crazy up in there and let me tell you with the things going on it is a mess and the ball hasn't even started to roll yet.

We went on our yearly camping trip, bought a house, getting ready to go to Florida, and I'm getting ready to start my second job in a few days. And there is a lot that needs to be done to the house before we can move in by Nov. Man that doesn't look or sound like a lot but it really is!

We just started painting yesterday, got all the ceilings done and one coat on the living room. Tonight we finish the living room and start the hallway and move on the the office and bedroom. We are leaving the bathroom the way it is since it have tile halfway up the wall. The kitchen will be last since the is a wallpaper trim around the top that needs to come down before painting begins in there. The bay window in the living room is going to need to be replaced, and soon!

I'm trying not to go all out and do everything how I want it. Since this house is just a stepping stone to our TRUE first home. We are buying it a fixing it up to turn around and sell it in about a year or less. To give us more money for our REAL first house.

In a way we are kinda doing his mother a favor and taking it off her hands even though she is there helping us out with a lot of it and trying to take control of somethings as well. Keep in mind I didn't even want to pick out paint colors. As soon as I found out he only wanted to be there for 6 months I was done thinking about anything to make it our own. I am still going back and forth about even moving in.

But I need to do it, I need to be out on my own and figure me out. Figure Rob and I out, and it's the only way I can do that. I know I will be alright and I for sure know that Rob and I will be alright. We well be more then alright.

This step on our yellow brick road will either make us or break us. Don't worry I'll let you what way it goes..

Wish Us Luck <3 p="p">

My Review of Gumback Express

Originally submitted at LUSH USA

Bananas makes your skin really, really soft, so we squashed a bundle up and mixed them with ground almonds. Ground almonds are nutritious and exfoliating, which also leave the skin very soft. Honey and almond oil are also very softening and moisturizing. So you can imagine how you'll feel after...

Gumback Express

Holy Banana

By Ana from Chicago, IL on 7/12/2012

 

5out of 5

When you survey your stash, you label this product: Must-Have

Pros: Pleasant Smell, Easy To Use, Long Lasting, Moisturizing

Cons: Poor Lather

Best Uses: Showers

Describe Yourself: Budget Buyer

I love this product. The lather isn't the best but I don't care. It smells amazing and it last for quite a while after the shower. My boyfriends can always tell when I use it, He is always like "O lord the banana queen just arrived." Most of my lush stuff had banana in it.. But all jokes and pokes aside. If you find your skin a little dry this product is for you!

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