So it’s been a little while since my last blog. Not much has changed since then. Family is still crazy, Rob and I are still annoying each other. But there has been a lot of things on my mind that I haven’t really let out to anyone. So while I was trying to think about what to blog about today all that stuff came flooding in my mind. So what better way to let it out then in a blog for the world to read. Who knows some people in my life may read it and get a clue..
So here goes nothing….
So Rob and I started looking at houses again. When he told to start looking again he was all excited about it which made me get all excited about it as well. Like finally we can get the ball rolling and start our lives together. But like every other story that involves Rob there is a catch. The catch for this was him pretty much saying “Oh Just Kidding”. Yeah I got all excited about things and was finding great houses and looked at 5 I really liked. Then last Sunday, the 29th, he took off work so we could go and look at open houses and make appointments to see a few I like. So Saturday while he was off work I asked him to look at the houses I had saved on the website and tell me which ones he liked or wanted to look at. And what does Rob do. He spends all day doing nothing. O my bad he skates and makes a rail with his friend Chris. Then goes out to dinner for Chris’s grandparents anniversary. Mind you he hasn’t been to any birthdays or anniversaries for my family. He couldn’t even make it to my birthday!! So needless to say no houses were looked at, and he then told me that he isn’t ready to move nor does he want to move out. Not till I go back to school and get a better paying job to hold down the house with in case he can’t work. Ok I’m done with this subject, because it really drives me nuts Anything about this LITTLE boy drives me nuts anymore.
On to the subject of SCHOOL. I really and truly miss going to school and having that interaction with people that aren’t yelling at me for an out of date coupon. I don’t have the money to go back to school. And I refuse to take out any kind of student loan to go back. I haven’t been in school since 08, I stopped going because I couldn’t handle going to school and working all the hours they were giving me. Now one thing you must know about Bergner’s is that they don’t care about school or family, well they don’t care if you want a life outside of work. All they care about is themselves. Which is fine but frankly I don’t care about anymore. They wouldn’t work around my school, they would put on to work while I was in class, and I worked every night. Which left very little time to do any sort of homework. I was never good at the whole school thing. It’s really hard for me to focus and stay on track. A big thing is that I get bored so easily that the class would drive me nuts.. So that’s why I made the choice to stop and focus on work and make/save money. And let me tell you I have not lived down that choice one second.
But the thing with school is I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. I have always loved doing hair and makeup, and baking. But cosmetology has the most stuck up people working it. That is one thing I can’t stand, I hate it when people think they are the best at everything. I’m not the skinniest person out there but I’m also not the fastest. But in the world you almost have to be a twig. And that makes me a sad girl to know that I will be judge on my weight like that. Baking will be a lot easier to be excepted in, and it’s something I know I’m good at. That is why I am so ready to be out of my parents house. So I can cook and bake what I want to. No one can tell me no, well besides Rob if we live together. I really can’t not make a choice as what I want to do. Like I wish someone could just tell me what I’m good at in life so I can get started at doing it.. I really hate this not know thing that life brings along. It really bothers me.
I leave the 19th of May for Georgia and let me tell you it can’t come fast enough!! We aren’t coming back till the 29th and I’m so stoked. I love it down there and have been thinking a lot about just up a leave here and go and live down there. Life just seems to be so much easier down there and chill. That’s what I need a chill life. I am planning a trip to Savannah in October. And I couldn’t be more excited. Now if I could Rob to come along on my trip since I did take the time off because he wanted me to so we could take a long weekend off.
Well I am done for now. Family is over and I can’t think..!
No comments:
Post a Comment