Sorry it's been so long. A lot of things haven happened since the last time i was really on here. Lets give you a little background of what has gone on that last 6 months.
In March I meet what I would like to call some friends for LIFE. Words can't describe how I feel about these people. Kelley, Rebecca, Joe and Jason! These four people changed my life and they continue to do so everyday! I was in a relationship where I was trying to make the other person happy and not focus on myself. We spent countless hours and Saturday's getting ready for our companies STAR dinner for a lip sync contest. We may have spent a little too much time getting ready for this but we had a blast doing so!!
Shortly afterwards I moved out the first time(you will understand later) and moved back with my parents. I left the house I helped build and my dog behind. It was the hardest thing I thought I would ever have to do(till I starting thinking about dating again).
In June I lost a family member. Jacob P Frisella (miss you dearly)
He was crushed in a work related accident. I have never cried so hard or cry while doing a blog. He was making a name for himself in this big world. He had just bought a house and was going to flip it. Along with a new car. He left behind 3 brothers and a sister that will only know of his amazing memories we share with her. His passing open my eyes to a lot of things that I was trying to not think about.
In June I also returned to the house and the BOY. I thought things were going well, but i had a sense that he was done and just didn't know it yet. Needless to say he cheated on me, and I was broken! I was lost, I thought at the time I was pregnant with his child and I was torn. We were together for 12 years all together the exact day I moved my stuff out for good. I found out I wasn't pregnant. It still hurts to this day and I still get tears when I think to long about it. But everyone gets to be happy whether they deserve it or not is up to KARMA.
I have some guys in my life that make me smile when I see that its a text or a message from them. But I have to protect myself and mostly my heart.
But with every adventure in life comes a lesson. I got a lot of wise words of wisdom :). And I have listen very carefully even if they were over my head a little. I have found myself and little happier, a little more positive, and I dream less about it. I am making steps to my new life and new adventures. You have to go through a few bad apples before you find a pie worthy one.
When I'm ready so will he, and it will be up to us to make things happen.
Remember everything happens for a reason and there is always a lesson to be learned in every situation and in every conversation. It's up to us to learn from them and continue on with a smile on our face and in our heart!!
You are loved! And there is someone out there who loves you beyond words! <3 p="">
